From the recording Musical Thought Journey
This song expresses the frustration I feel when I know I can help with something but am not allowed to bypass a simple IT Security issue to accomplish the ultimate goals.
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
You said, “You’ll be fine, just give it time,”
Closed the door like you already made up your mind.
Left my boots by the welcome mat,
Smiled like you’d never look back.
You said you needed steadier hands,
Said you needed bigger plans,
When I reached to hold the rope,
You cut it loose and called it hope.
[Pre Chorus]
I see the cracks you’re covering,
I know how this thing breaks,
But you’d rather guard your doubts
Than let me share the weight.
[Chorus]
I thought I’d be fine —
You swore I’d be fine.
Now I’m watching from the sidelines
While you cross the line.
It’s a waste of time,
It’s a waste of my name.
You won’t let me in the room
But I’d carry half the blame.
I can be trusted,
I’d give you everything.
But you’d rather lose control
Than let me fix a thing.
[Verse 2]
You talk about solutions
Like they’re out of reach,
I’ve been building bridges
While you’re preaching “don’t get too deep.”
I’d bleed for the blueprint,
Stay until it’s done,
I don’t need the spotlight—
Just a chance to help you run.
[Pre Chorus]
I hear the doubt behind your tone,
You call it “playing safe,”
But every wall you build
Is pushing me away.
[Chorus]
I thought I’d be fine —
You swore I’d be fine.
Now I’m pacing in the parking lot
Outside the dotted line.
It’s a waste of time,
It’s a waste of what I bring.
You won’t hand me the keys
But I could fix anything.
I can be trusted,
I don’t fold when it’s hard,
But you’d rather lose the war
Than lower your guard.
[Bridge]
One day you’ll feel the silence
Where my loyalty stood,
Talent doesn’t beg forever—
It just leaves when it should.
[Final Chorus]
I’ll be fine —
Yeah, I’ll be fine.
Just not standing in your shadow
While you redraw the lines.
You wasted time,
You wasted what I gave,
And I won’t spend another minute
Trying to prove I’m brave.
I can be trusted,
And somewhere they’ll believe,
When they open up the door
I won’t ask—
I’ll lead.
[Outro]
Yeah, I will be useful
Oh yeah – I’ll be useful
